Currently Listening In Utero By Nirvana Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge on Seattle see related

wow... i havent updated this in like a month... geez. anyway, ill remember as far back as i can... [10/13ish] Tiffany asked me if i wanted a date for homecoming, and i said no because i didnt want to look like a moron in front of someone i didnt know and quite frankly, didnt trust her judgement. [10/15] KO Homecoming. it was fun, but i felt left out even if i did dance with like 8 girls during 1 slow song. ryan swears that i was poppin pills but unless kroger is a drug smuggling ring (which i think it is...) then the eclipse mints were harmless. [10/16] my birthday, nothing special really, just new CD's and stuff, plus i can go get my permit (i think i need to get info on it after this) [10/17-10/21] school was boring, then that friday ryan and i went to see Scapino at Magnolia. we got there at like 6:30 and it didnt start until 7. at about 6:45 the power went out and we waited until about 7:30ish that the play was cancelled. so ryan wanted to leave but tiffany still wanted to set me up with this girl, so i made him stay. Charlotte and Tiffany came out at 7:46:13 and we stayed at the school for about 15 minutes before we decided to go somewhere. so char and tiff got into the bubblezmobile and the ryans got into ryan's car. we were driving and decided to drag race vs. tiff and we were over 95 when she sped off, so she must have been over 100. we ended up at target, and we bought some starbucks stuff. a frap. Iced Tea and some sort of coffee. we played with the toys there again, then looked a halloween stuff, then at condoms. we were sitting outside target on the balls (get your mind outta the gutter) and i moved onto a cart that has seats on it for little kids. ryan pushes me into the road and almost tips it over, so i told him i would get him back. char was going to throw her frap. away and i took it from her and ran after him. he must have thought i wouldnt throw it or something, but i did. he was pissed at me, but i didnt really care. so we sat at target for a little while longer before we left and said goodbye. [10/22] went to see Scapino again, but this time they power didnt go out. it sucked that i didnt get to see char again though. but there was enough time to get asked to homecoming, and i gladly accepted[10/24-10/28] school again, but this time i was making a mum, so it was more fun. friday was the HC football game, but nobody watched. tiffany and mercedes made out and licked each others face, and char was using me as a blanket/pillow, and i was more than happy to oblige.[10/29] Magnolia HC. Met lots of char's friends and we talked alot. i would have to say the best part of the dance everybody enjoyed takes only 2 words: MOSH PIT!!!! oh, and Ryan found somebody else that he might like, and i still think that he is just confused about his sexuality. afterwards, we went to Denny's where i had already planned to ask char out by just casually leaning over and whispering into her ear, but tiffany started asking us "are you two going out yet? are you dating yet? blah blah blah" and it kinda ruined it, but even when i asked char out as a response to tiffany's annoying questons, she still said yes. then right after i did it Greg started threatening me that if i hurt her he will cut my balls off with a curling iron and force feed them down my throat. good thing that i never plan on hurting her. [10/30] went to the movies with char, greg, and em. Emily Rose wasnt bad, but i dint want to watch the movie, and was too afraid of doing anything... then we all went to Barney's Pool Hall with em's dad and her brother where charlotte and i snuggled against each other most of the time, but i was still to afraid to do anything, even though i was she she wanted to. then se went to cici's and sat in em's car afterwards. em and greg left and called ryan (at the time i didnt know this). i took a risk and kissed her, and we both were loving it. i stopped it, and i could tell she wanted more but before i could go again, greg ran up and hit the window. now im mad at ryan cus he told me later that he told greg and em to do it... so we sat there while i waited for my mom. i went to bk with my mom and brothers and they wanted to know if i had kissed her. i planned on saying no, realized my mom would see right through it and just came out with it. i was teased by my little brothers, but they stopped when the older one realized that he is gonna be doin the same thing and will prolly want my help, just like i wanted big ryans, but since he had less expirience than me... and i went to target and bought SAW. [10/31] school, but it was halloween! i went to ryan's house to hang out and help with decorations. when it rained we were pissed cus i put in like 3 hours work on his house and he put in about 20 hours.i begged him to let char come with tiff to his house but he wouldnt. just as i went to call her to tell her she couldnt come cus ryan was being an ass, he relented and let her come as long as we didnt make out during the movie cus his parents might be coming upstairs and they didnt know that any of us had dates to the Mag. HC. so we watched SAW with little kids ringing on the doorbell. ryans little brothers came up and we told them to leave. after the movie was over we went downstairs to say goodbye cus it was kinda late. just a goodnight kiss, but ryan and tiff saw, and i was kinda embarassed but then i was like, to hell with them. [11/1-11/4] school and stuff, boring as hell. [11/5] went to the mall with tiff, greg, and char. tiff hurt her ankle on friday, so she was in a wheelchair. we were afraid of her racing for pinks agains little kids in strollers, but she was very controlled and didnt kill anybody. went to American Eagle, Hollister, Hot Topic, JCP, Victorias Secret (i think i saw a 40 yr old by himself, and he wasnt lookin at the goods), Claires and Godiva, among other places. Saw a stripper pole at spencers, and i bought an AC/DC hat at JCP. we left around 8:45 or so (about 7 hours at the mall and i didnt get bored once) and went to Denny's. we met up with joe and budda there and just talked about guns and pain. then we went back to tiff and joe's cars and talked. well, greg and budda talked cus me and char were too busy and so were joe and tiff. then after we thought tiff and joe had sex, we found out that they were just talking (yeah, right) and then they drove off in joe's truck and left us without a way to get home! so we sat in tiffs car for a little while and then we got restless and went to go find out where joe and tiff went. we saw there car but me and char didnt want to see what was happening, so we went behind some sheds. after that we see greg and budda running across the parking lot to us where they recorded the inside of joes car on tiffs phone.greg and budda went back to tiffs car but char and i left to go behind some bushes. we head back to tiffs car, and were talking about how funny it would be if greg  and budda were having sex in tiffs car, cus greg has been wanting a boyfriend for a long time. then tiffany came back, told us what happened, and then i went home. [11/6] Today i sat around my house until my mom started yelling at me. then i had to clean, and im about to do homework and after that, its phone time :)

                                                                    -Peace, Love, Empathy

                                                                              Ryan

Currently Listening All Eyez on Me By 2Pac Ambitionz Az a Ridah see related

yeah... kinda pissed off... **flashback to friday**

report cars 1st period, actually good grades. i got a higher grade in spanish than english though.... cus i got like a 50 on a test... but my parents didnt know that

the rest of the day was ehhh... not bad. just watched war games in 3rd period (my icm class where we watch movies all of the time) and then a test in bio (another 105 baby! i think...) then came the bad part.

after all fridays i come home with ryan D, or R1, and lizzy g who he drives home. this week ryan had to watch sum1's dog and we went to go check on it b4 we dropped lizzy off. we were there just waitin for the dog to finish her business, when she just started trying to kick ryan and me in the balls. we ran around an island in the kitchen for like 5 minutes before things got drastic. i was on the side with the knives....i grabbed a huge one (it only sounds dirty). then she worked me around to the other side and she grabbed the biggest one. it was a mexican standoff (ha ha, mexican) and we both set our knives down. then she picks hers up and i run into the dogs room and she corners me. imagine her slashing at you with a knife while she is trying to punt your balls across the state(actually, it was kinda erotic... lol, jk). she finally gave them a love tap (again, only sounds dirty) and i thought she was done. boy was i wrong. i run up against ryans ass and protected myself after a few more attempts when she really gets em good. i felt like puking right then, and i almost did.then i went back to ryans house, and after the puking feeling passed, we played football with his neighbors, and they almost won. i was the best on the team of teens (naturally) and had a 1.000 catching % go me!!! then eric jumped on me and i rolled my ankle, it hurt like a mutha. saturday nothing happend, cept for what i heard about tiffany, ryan, rob, and his girlfriend... and i liked what i heard. then today ryan and tiffany went to the Ren Fest while i took a pre-PSAT test... which i failed.... and i have to do 2 projects and math h/w still... oh well... homecoming is friday, psat is friday, football game friday, walmart friday, and birthday saturday... idk if im gonna let my parents do anything cus last time i hated it cus i had to go sumwhere by bro wanted to go cus he doesnt like steak or ribs... now who (besides a vegitarian) doesnt like steak or ribs? so yeah, busy weekend, and tests all week.

                                                                        -Peace, Love, Empathy

                                                                                       Ryan

Currently Listening D12 World By D12 My Band see related

lol, kinda tired cus i was talkin on aim until 4am and fell asleep at 5am. but i had enough energy to go over to aj's house and play NES and PS2 (eye toy2) and that took alot outta me. I have a HUGE headache because of this and feel sick now... anyway, friday was awesome. i went home with R1 (as usual) and we hung out and watched TV and played NFSU2. then steven showed up and we hung out for awhile with him there. we got hungry and went to Jack in the Box. on our way there, Steven saw his friends car and he told them to go to jack in the box so we were there for like 10 minutes or so just talkin b4 everyone left. then i went back to r1's house and just shot the shit there b4 i went home.

                                                Peace, Love, Empathy

                                                                                  -Ryan

Currently Listening With The Lights Out [3CD Box Set + DVD] By Nirvana I Hate Myself and Want to Die see related

Wow... long time no talk.... anyway, Rita was frickin retarded... I worked for hours prepping the house, and then NOTHING happened. Well, a dead tree fell on our house but it was BEFORE the winds. Got busted on Monday cus I was out from 7pm to almost 1am without calling my mom or leaving her a number to call. Kinda stupid cus its on the phone and thats why I spent 2 hours making a hit, err, contact list. So yeah, came off of the 1 gallon Dew buzz (yeah, Do the Dew!!!) really quickly. Stayed up until like 3am when my dad came upstairs to start working and had to hide. Sat in dark for 30 min before I fell asleep. Wasted time I could have spent on the computer. Now, back to today, not much to report captian. Swore in front of AJ and Ryan that if the next girl I ask turns me down, I'm going with Daniel... and I really hope she doesnt turn me down. I was gonna ask her today but one of my friends pointed out that I had left something in the classroom so I went to get it and couldn't find her afterwards. Then I was gonna ask her after school but I thought "I'd better not, or else I'll miss the bus" so I went to the bus area and guess what? MY BUS WASN'T THERE!!!!!  So yeah, now I'm gonna ask her tomorrow in the morning. Got some Homework to do, like study for a test (yeah right) and some math stuff (for a test) and some bio stuff (for a test...) and World History Stuff (for a quiz) and take a test from home for my ICM class.

                                                       Peace, Love, Empathy

                                                                                          -Ryan

Currently Listening Nirvana By Nirvana Rape Me see related

Wazzup! Today was OK I guess... Math is easy, along with english, and bio. Spanish was fun, i got to end a story by using gay guys! lol, and the chick got run over by a train. I had a mystery girl and decided to do whatever she said, just so i could get her name. Big mistake. now she hates me, even though i explained i really didnt hate them and was just acting, and they consected to the whole thing. Girls really are confusing me, well, just her. Most are kinda confusing, but she goes from one extreme to the other. anyway, i got grounded and im not supposed to be on the comp... oh well. lets see... if you want my new sn its gonna be nirvanafanx and nirvanarocks0.

-Peace, Love, Empathy